Regret getting drunk at his Xmas do as several years ago he was leaving me after going on a secret date with another lady he had become friends with via his work. I think there may have been other dates? I will never know or ask now but when I found out it was such a shock and for a week he didn't want me. Long story but it broke my heart 30 years together/best friends. I just was sooo davastated. Have posted about it before.
It was a horrendous time 💔💔😢but we stayed together and I have coped with it. Inside feel shit about myself as used to feel special and his number one. Lost a lot of weight in last few months. Still got a way to go but nearer to target maybe couple stone and just wanted to go to Xmas looking better and feeling nicer.
Because I was very nervous I drank too much and ended up a state and chatting too much in front of Colleagues and can't remember everything I said.
I feel I have really let myself down in front of his colleagues and this lady who he still has contact with just as colleague/friend.
How do I move forward from feeling like the Xmas party clown and letting myself down. I wanted to be sophisticated and look better as lost weight but just drank too much to feel less nervous and now am so annoyed with myself.
How do other people cope with this sort of thing.