I posted a year ago about my DP and how I felt he was controlling and treating me like a child. I don't know if I am allowed to link the old thread for background? Anyway been swithering between leaving and going all year, I ended things after I had posted but ended up back with him.
I should say that I have had mental health issues such as low self esteem and recently have been having quite extreme anxiety. Most of this has been about our relationship so I'll be in a cycle of overthinking, wanting to leave, flying off the handle at him then making up. A part of me is worried I just want something to be anxious about. I realised how bad my anxiety had gotten when a family member was in hospital for something non life threatening and I was convinced they were going to die and couldn't stop panicking and actually function until I'd seen them myself.
Now again we have had an argument and I've told him i am done. He has spent last 2 days begging me to work on it, he wants us to have a healthy relationship and will be more understanding.. He has done some sh*tty things in the past but since last year's attempted break up he has tried his best yet I'm still resentful all the time so I don't know what to do. Part of me wants it to work, a part of me thinks he is manipulating me and the other part worries I can't work on my own issues if I don't leave this? All I know is I can't go on like this.