Was it SA? Trigger warning.

[Anothergenericname24]

Hi.

I split with my ex partner at the start of the year but recently I’ve started thinking/having flashbacks of the relationship. My ex partner would always want to have sex ( I mean every night) and most of the time I didn’t want to so I would so no not tonight or I don’t feel in the mood etc and he would ignore that and say he could get me in the mood and would touch me etc and most of the time I would give in just so he would leave me alone or I would turn away from him and it felt like he would see this as a sign to have sex with me. I woke up before to him penetrating me with his fingers and I pushed him off me and told him to stop. I would tell him I didn’t like it and not to do it again but it happened one more time before we split. Is this SA? I’m just a bit confused now I think about it. Sorry if it’s TMI

Yes it is.

If anyone touches you sexually without your full and enthusiastic consent then it's abuse.

I'm sorry that happened to you.

Putting pressure on you until you 'give in' is coercion because 'consent' is only given under duress so isn't really consent at all.

thank you for your reply.

I think I was in denial it happened to me and asking myself why did I let this happen not even once but a few times. The first time I woke up to him doing what he did I told him to never do that again and he said he wouldn’t. I’m suffering with anxiety at I think this a trigger for me