How do you deal with the absolute heart ache when someone you've been with on and off for 6 years, talk daily to, do romantic things i.e. spa, hotels, spend day's together (although we were ex's, we only was together for around a year) to suddenly ignoring me for a week straight. Telling me twice on different days that he will call me later on in the day, sending a sad emoji and saying sorry i make u feel incomplete and hurt. I have been sending multiple messages everyday asking what i have done wrong and why they are suddenly ignoring me and i will even try to call them. He even replied on one of the days saying he is around people and will call me when he gets in and why is the world panicking if he's just doing his thing. I said how can you put me in that category and that he hasn't been around people for days he can't even ring me to tell me whats happening. He hasn't rang me at all of course, I even sent a voice note of me on one occasion crying. I feel so embarrassed for myself because I feel like how can someone that i was always there for suddenly treat me like this. Numerous times I will know he is speaking to another female he slept with in the past but he would always apologise and spoil me after, said im special because he took me to his mums house. It all sounds very messy I know, deep down I said to myself time and time that I know one day this will all have to end but I just feel like he’s the only male that has come into my life and stuck by as a single mum with no contact with her baby-dad. I just want to stop thinking about him, get on with my normal day to day, not breaking down everywhere I go if someone asks me I am okay like in a DR appointment toady. How have I let someone make me feel so sad like this when I know deep down how it is. To mention as well the relationship ended when he suddenly put his hands on me but said it was because I don't know how to shut up. I literally have no friends. This is just so scary :( I feel embarrassed to even be posting this here