I know I'm having a pity party but I feel so bereft.
In the last 12 months both my sisters, who I consider to be my best friends have got married.
Growing up and beyond, as the eldest, I was definitely the peace maker and the one that both came to when they were in trouble. The other two fought and still would say they don't get on that well..never been close and often wouldn't speak for months on end.
I was suprised when my younger sister asked the middle sister to be her maid of honour. I was so hurt that I cried later on. My sister didn't want to be maid of honour, hates social occasions and grumbled through the day, basically doing no planning or anything to help the bride.
It was an odd choice but I gently accepted it as my sisters wishes. It was awkward but I think we all breezed over it. The important bit was that my sister and her husband married and are happy.
Yesterday my other sister married. Just her, husband and two witnesses. The one being my middle sister.
I wasn't invited and I feel bereft about it.
Both sisters have gone to some pains to explain it's due to practicality as they live nearer than I do.
However, I have two days off a week from work and had offered to come up and be there for the ceremony then drift off when not needed and would have happily stayed in the hotel reading and sleeping Afterwards.
I keep wracking my brains about what I've done wrong. I'm not a loud person, I don't get drunk or embarrass anyone, i don't have any nasty habits and don't fall out with anyone but I appreciate there must he some reason I've been bypassed by both sisters.
I don't want to make a big thing about it to them but I'm bereft.
I often feel really left out of things in general.
I've tried to fit in but clearly don't.
It's made me feel like I want to hide from everyone, move to a cave on my own!🤣