My partner and I have been together for 10 years. I am currently 16 weeks pregnant. Unmarried, house owned as joint tenants. I am the breadwinner, only slightly and bring it approximately £2.5k per month.
6 months ago my partner went on holiday with his friends. Afterwards I was suspicious of his behaviour and found messages on his phone to and from another woman he had met out there. For reasons which I won’t go into, and without wanting to make it the topic of this conversation, I know it didn’t get physical at any point but the messages crossed a boundary.
After this our relationship was in a bad way and he started lying about where he was to drink and gamble. I caught him, we had a heart to heart conversation and nothing has happened since. We promised that we would put everything behind us and I promised I wouldn’t throw it in his face. He’s been excellent since then.
on Friday we had an argument. It started over something utterly petty and in the heat of the moment I told him how I don’t believe that he is where he says he is, he cheated on me, I don’t trust him etc. the argument got so unnecessarily heated over nothing. He told me that he hasn’t loved me since before he went away, I pushed him into what he done and neither of us should feel the way we do. He shouldn’t feel like I don’t trust him everytime he leaves the house and I shouldn’t feel that way either.
The reality is that he’s grown so much and come such a long way over the last 5 months and what I said, was said in the heat of the argument. I know he says stuff when he gets angry too and again, that’s not right from either of us. Aside from what happened on Friday, since we had our heart to heart months ago, things have been really well between us.
Either way he insisted on Friday that he wanted the relationship to end and we haven’t spoken since. I have apologised for my part of the argument but received nothing back.
What on earth do I do and how do I approach this? Feeling this way emotionally is bad enough, let alone being pregnant. How do I go about supporting myself if it truly is over, how do I get all that done prior to having a baby. My mum lives locally but only has a single room available. Where do I go and what do I do without causing myself anymore heartbreak and stress? I can barely sleep.