I am now a divorcee. Been an awful four years - ex husband had a long term affair but then transpired that he had cheated multiple times and even before we were married. I had no idea a- he was vehemently against cheating and I thought we loved each other. Young children to raise now and still have to see him twice a week. That I am coping with.
I am struggling though with feelings of just despair really. I never knew my father, he just never stuck around and I have this real hurt inside that the man I put my trust in; I told my ex husband that I would never have children as I knew I couldn’t risk the hurt that I felt throughout my childhood. My ex reassured me, we married and I waited almost four years before having our first child as I wanted to be sure this was the right thing. Yet I was still duped and now I feel kind of abandoned which is silly as I still have my children, my family, friends and a good job.
Does anyone have any advice?