Hi all,
Has anyone ever left a relationship because they realised life would be much easier if you did? Or am I being selfish.
I’ve been in my relationship for 5 years now and after being a single parent it was great living with someone again, not to feel lonely and share days out etc with.
But I realise now I’m exhausted and I know it would much easier alone, I’m thinking of moving out.
I have 2 children, partner has a son who stays 4/ 5 nights a week. He’s started taking him to his hobby 3 nights a week and once on a Saturday over the course of the last year, so I do 2/3 lots of dinners, my 2, then either warming up stepsons tea or putting it in as they’re on the way home, then doing ours, or if it’s something we all like, plating up at 8pm. Three times a week. No lie ins as they’re out on a Sat morning getting ready in our bedroom and partner is out all day from 8am Sunday and I look after stepson all day and my 2. Then I’ll take them all out or stay home as it’s easier sometimes and costs me a lot each week.
Partners hours have been cut so I’m paying most of the bills and food shopping. I work full time.
To top it off partner has restless leg syndrome so I get a restless nights sleep I’m worn out! Asleep at 10 most nights which has caused problems with intimacy. Partner is constantly in a mood because of it and had another outburst at me because of it today and made me cry because I had to get up to do stepsons packed lunch at 6 and help my son get dressed for school (he’s autistic) to start work at 8. He wanted an extra 10 mins in bed with me, I avoided it because his attitude is pushing me away on top of everything I have to do
Id have been late. He’s not even sorry, he was pretty horrible to me.
Keep idealising leaving so I can have an easier time without someone having a go at me all the time and have more money so I can save again (most of my savings are gone from looking after the 5 of us) and I can just be happy and spend proper time just the three of us again. Does everyone else have these thoughts?