I’ve been with my husband for 11 years but first got together 15 years ago but was to soon after my divorce. so we parted ways and in that time I had some rebound flings. We have two children aged 10 and 4 and and I have an 18 year old daughter from the previous marriage. During these years things have been difficult he didn’t treat my daughter very well for a while due to jealousy.she was 10 at the time went on for a couple of years was going to leave him then he changed and it stopped and there closer now.I’m not easy to deal with at times as I do suffer with mental health compulsions/ocd so does my daughter but we’re both on tablets/therapy and in a good place with that now. but due to this he resents me and mainly resents my past partners and he’s so caught up with bitterness that he talks down to me everyday belittles me makes me feel not worthy maybe I’m to blame but I can’t help what I suffer with and I can’t help having a past. due to years of this I’ve started going to the gym get more fitter and for my mental well being but the last year and a half I’ve developed a strong attraction for the personal trainer at the gym I was never a client of his though just occasional conversations seems a lovely person which is what I was mainly attracted to he constantly looks at me holds he’s gaze smiles any how I told him I’m attracted to him he was smiling like a treasure cat and said to me “it’s high risk you could lose everything” maybe he was just being friendly I was reading wrong signals although didn’t seem like it but is true what he said as my husband also uses that same gym. Does this mean my marriage is dead?do I work on it? I Feel guilt confusion appreciate advice thanks 🙏