My EXH and I split up 10 years ago then had lenthy divorce with our new DPs both sides involved. All completely unnecessary. Ex was angry at me and he wanted it all to be painful. No one won. When we used to be together we were v much in love but sexless marriage. Therapy did not help. ended it.
10 years later I still miss him and our time together. He had couple of bad relationships, I have not been happy. Initially he went NC then slowly would reply to my messages. I would text now and then about thinsg that we both had to sort out between us, nothing romantic. Couple of times I emailed in a deeper tone and asked to meet up. He said no. In the last 6m whenever I email (not text) him he replies to me literally within 3-10 minutes. Answers all my questions. These are still family admin stuff etc. The moment I ask him to meet up he always says 'it is not something I am willing to do'. Recently I asked again but he did not reply at all to that. He will reply to other things. I wonder what is going on in his head. I have left him so many olive branches over the last 1.5 year. He still has our pictures on SM, still has shared on our phones. We both ruined it for each other. I would have done things differently today. He was my best friend, we were really good together aside from sexless relationship and few other things. I guess my question is - how do I go about it?