I (16f) have interest in a young man (m19). Before you bash me about the age gap, I'm religious and made a promise to the Lord not to date until I'm at least 17. So we'd be (17,20) or (18,21). He's an incredible young man, serves at church, is friendly, loves skateboarding, adventures, we share the same friend group. He volunteers with me at our church together, He's wonderful with kids.
Seriously an incredible young man, but not only I, but everyone knows it. Especially because he's very conventionally attractive, I am not. (I have been told I am but it doesn't seem right). We became friends because we share the same name. (One of the reasons I don't think we could be together.) over the past few months I gained interest in him after having a dream that he and I were in a relationship. I've prayed about it and have only seen more good things about him. Problem is, I think if anything he used to like me. When I first met him, he said he loved my laugh, he said he loved me twice, but I had never liked a man before. I didn't even understand. But I would be willing to commit to a relationship with him now. Do I even have a chance?
Examples of why I think I might? (Non necessary to read).
At a camp that we volunteered for church at, he lost his voice and I found him playing guitar. I sat beside him and we held eye contact the entire time he played a song, he checks in on me often, he has offered to pay for meals, said he loves me, said I don't have an awkward smile (means something to me). And the middle schoolers started singing the "- and - sitting in a tree" about us.
Do I even have a chance?