I have always known I have loved an old friend. We were close in college, we were part of a group that meant we had some amazing life experiences together. The group split & we both went to separate universities. This was 15+ years ago now. He came back into my thoughts after a vivid dream - we haven't spoke in so long, but I've always cared and wondered how he is. I did some social media browsing & realised yesterday he is recently married.
I am happily engaged with a gorgeous daughter, he is off travelling the world with his (absolutely stunning!!) new wife. I just feel deflated. We are so far apart in our lives & I'm sure he doesn't give me a second thought, so why is he taking over my thoughts so much? I'm convinced I will always carry a torch for him, and I'm not sure the point of this post, I'm not unhappy with my life at all! But can't help wistfully thinking of all the what ifs. Am I crazy? I'm just v sad, & happy for him at the same time, but it felt like a physical punch in the stomach to see these gorgeous happy wedding photos! Has anyone else been in this weird position?