Once bitten, always shy

[Lollyp2]

I started a fight yesterday.

My DH got a text from his female friend who he has been touchy with previously.

She was inviting us for dinner soon but I will be working so obviously my DH will be attending by himself.They will be 3 of them.My DH, his friend and his friends GF who sent the text out.

My DH told me about it ( possibly coz I would have found out anyway) and my memory of the past ( my DH and the OW being touchy flared up).

I became very emotional and almost began crying because when my DH was touchy feely with her, he didn't apologise when I brought it up until I threatened to leave.
In my emotions I told him to go for the dinner but to "keep his hands to himself" given previous history.
This upset him so much.

How can I forget what happened while they still carry on being touchy?
The way he looks at her and keeps asking his guy friend about her worries me.

Why can't he just leave them alone and concentrate on mending our relationship?

"I am trying to forgive my DH"

Why? @Lollyp2 Why on Earth are you putting up with his totally unacceptable behaviour, and trying to forgive him? In what possible way does he deserve your forgiveness? He has shown no remorse whatsoever and appears to be continuing to do whatever he likes. And rubbing your nose in it.

Fgs stop TTC until you sort this out one way or the other.

You'd be mad to have a baby with him at this stage. It will just trap you and his behaviour will likely deteriorate further with the excuse of your pregnancy body or because he's even more complacent that you won't leave.

And pregnancy often hits your self-image, so you really don't need to be dealing with changes to your body & lifestyle while dealing with someone you can't trust.

Get the basics right between you before you bring a baby into it.

@Beastiesandthebeauty
No I have never sat on another man's lap and would never imagine doing so esp infront of my DH.
He holds my hand when we are together, tells me frequently that "he loves me" and we get along okay on other stuff as I am pretty laid back and happy to make everything work.

Yes I have posted frequently mainly asking for advice to make sure I am not crazy for bringing up these observations.

@Mom2K
Yes I do hear you and I should listen to everyone here because I am at risk of losing my head.

@nomorehocuspocus I should face reality

@category12 Certianly will stop TTC

THANK YOU ALL!
I am glad to confirm that I am not being accusatory and that these behaviours are wretched.
I choose not to put up with them anymore

@Lollyp2
From what you replied to me, it sounds like you're being Gaslit by him.
Try reading about it and see if you can resonate with what I mean.

No one should be made to feel delusional or crazy.

I hope you see your worth soon.