This is so hard to write, as I love him so much. But there is no spark. I feel like I am living with a room mate than a fiancé.
We been together 4 years we have a 2 year old and I have 2 older teens from previous.
He's never been a touchy feely open emotionally kinda person, he's had a hard up bringing so doesn't always feel comfortable opening up, which I have never forced him. And up untill the last 6 month I have always been ok with it, I would lean in for the cuddle or more etc but I've recently been diagnosed with BPD and my meds have completely stopped my s3x drive and once I take my medication I am like a zonked zombie in bed. Which isn't helping matters. Has anything ever been like this or similar and came through the other end or will this just get worse and worse? Please help