i love him but he has hurt me in a way that I cannot get over. I want to forgive and I want to move on as our relationship is so much better now but I’m so sad and hurt still. It’s been 6 months being back together and I can’t get over what he did while we were broken up. I know we weren’t together but I was pregnant at the time with our second baby. He left me after 6 years together (the 6th year was horrendous for us granted but I still wanted to make it work. I’m admit, it has never been that bad before). I was so hurt I cut him out my life and went through a family member to communicate. He found someone to have a sexual relationship with during the time we were broken up (broke up 2/3 months). The day I gave birth was when he said he had a “oh shit moment”
he’s been trying his hardest to show he’s sorry. But I am struggling to forgive. It’s hard to leave because prior to the last year or so our relationship has been great and I really wanted to marry this man. I’m stuck because we could have a great relationship again but at the same time, I’m so hurt and sad that I’m not allowing myself to be happy. I’m worried about our children. They love their daddy.