Just that really. I'm increasingly feeling unloved and invisible. I have a wonderful DD who is my everything and my only shining light, plus our rescue dog. I only hold it together for DD.
I've been separated for three years. I quietly had a mental breakdown and didn't resolve any of our issues and ended up moving out with DD. ExH didn't want to discuss anything and gave the silent treatment. Now I don't know what I was thinking to leave my marriage but he let us go. We co-parent OK and DD is thriving but it's as if we were never married.
I have a very toxic family of origin with a narc DM. Estranged siblings and all relatives are NC due to my DM. DF is the only one who checks in on me and my DD. I sometimes wish I could turn to an auntie or cousins.
I have some acquaintances but no real friends to turn to. Tried to make friends but never fit in. No interest in a relationship ever again.
I guess I should be happy my life is peaceful it's just me, DD and the dog at home. But I feel lonely and unloved and miss the best parts of my marriage.