ok so when I started my first 'big girl job' aged 19, My former boss told me my audits on my work were poor (turned out to be bullshit and my work was fine ) ....... without going through all the details, he propositioned me and suggested he could ' help my audits go through clear and pass my performance report' if I slept with him, which i did a couple of times.
Please do not judge I was incredibly stupid and naive and genuinely thought at the time my job was at risk.
A few years later he left the business where I still work ( albeit a complete different department) (PS its a massive corporate company with many department and managers)
At the time i didn't feel like a victim and didn't realize how awful this was, kind of just assumed it was a rite of passage for a big girl job and kind of just forgot all about it.
10 years on , out of nowhere I keep thinking about it and realizing how wrong it actually was and all of a sudden I keep looking at the new hires who come into the business like I did at a similar age and thinking how young/naive/childlike 19/20 year old's actually are, and feeling kind of protective of them.
By no means am I saying I am a victim of SA , it was consensual It was clearly just a ploy to get into my knickers but I just don't know why I didn't realize
how wrong it was at the time and all of a sudden i just want to go back to that little 19 year old and give her a hug.