Recently left abusive partner.
Life's hard. 25 weeks pregnant.
But I have to just suck it up and get things ready.
I know it's a daft question but if I was to go into labour by myself in the night for example is it an ambulance job?
I'm just worried and it's daunting. I'm on my own. My family are 30 miles away.
I have my own house I've moved back into thank god so I'm lucky in that way.
I really loved my partner but it came apparent how abusive he was. It got worse and worse. I couldn't do a thing right. He was a different person everyday. One minute he wanted baby then he didn't. The last thing he said to me was that he can't stand me and he's gutted he's having a baby with someone he hates.
Nail in the coffin really.
This was after months of his ups and downs and calling me names and telling me how useless I am in the world. Once I woke him in the night as I felt very very poorly and he fell out with me the next day and told me how mad he was that I disturbed his sleep. (That's an example) he's tore my heart apart.
Baby needs to come into the world without his mum crying.
I've got 15 weeks to get myself together.
I am strong and focused but sometimes I just sit and sob for ten minutes. I've got most things for baby. Tonight I've put all my hospital stuff in my online basket (pads and stuff) etc and just burst out crying.
I just don't know how one minute he loved me then hated me. If he was horrible then he was sorry if I didn't accept his apology that minute it was all my fault. I don't understand how someone could neglect and destroy someone carrying their baby.
Anyways. Tips and advice welcome. I have teen daughter she's 15 she's amazing so I have given birth before but feels all new! Me and her are best friends. Xxxxx