Will be a long one sorry.
Been with DH for 13 years. Two primary aged DC, both mid forties and we are both working full time, no family living nearby. So life is already very busy.
DH had a difficult childhood which has definitely contributed to trauma in his adult life. He's done his best to address this, had extensive counselling etc. But it is something that from time to time, can make life a bit more challenging and means that he isn't always easy to be with.
He started a new demanding role two years ago and since then he's really struggled. Last year he went to the GP about his anxiety, they prescribed sertraline which I wasn't very happy about. It did help with his mood swings a bit but not with his sleep which has got so much worse. So he recently started to taper his dose, GP said fine to go cold turkey which he has. The effects have been nasty though, and he's having a hard time coping. And still not sleeping! He has sleeping pills now but they make him v groggy and they're not a long term solution.
This coincides with him looking for a new role as he's having to leave the last one. He won't be unemployed if he can't find something but he will take a pay cut, I reckon we'd be fine (and would much rather he was in a job he enjoys) but he is worried and it's impacted his self esteem.
Basically, this all means that he's incredibly difficult to live with and it's hugely impacting on family life. I'm trying to keep us out of his way but means I do the brunt of the childcare. I am trying to understand and be sympathetic but right now, I really don't like the person this is making him, and I've even thought a couple of times about what our life might look like living separately.
I just feel me and the DC are walking on eggshells all the time and it's making me anxious and nervy. Please don't think I don't care - of course I do and I love him, I'm invested in us. It's just so difficult though!
Don't know what anyone can say really, unless anyone else has experienced similar?