Please help me through this infatuation

[Gentlewithme]

I've had a crush for a long time now. I'm in a very long term relationship and have a child.

The enjoyment of the crush is intense but the feelings of longing are also very intense. It is not logical. I don't want to leave my partner for this man.

I have tried blocking the man but we do bump into each other occasionally. He has confronted me about blocking him so I've gone back on myself and unblocked.

This will probably sound terrible but I think some of it comes from taking my lovely partner for granted sometimes and taking his feelings for me as a given. My confidence is so low that I crave the attention from this other man.

Is it possible to stay in control? Can I keep the man in my life but train myself into taming the feelings?

Note my username, I do feel like a bad person. I don't feel being told this numerous times will help me through this. Real constructive advice would be so welcome.

You need to bar him again, and leave him barred.
And keep busy with family/work/hobbies.

You need to seriously work on your self esteem and start appreciating what you have. Can you mute rather than block him if you're talking about SM? so you don't see anything about him but he's not aware. Otherwise take yourself off SM, it'll probably be one of the best things you can do for your self esteem anyway.

I've had to work through a longstanding crush on someone i would never consider attractive but somehow it became a crush which I am now over. I couldn't avoid the person as they are in the wider family circle but I just kept it all internal and thankfully it's gone now. Only taken two years to fade out. 😫 time and space will help you get through it.

Did it go on its own? My crush has been going on even longer would you believe! I find that I do quite well for a few weeks and if I just happen to see him, I go a bit crazy for a few days.

You say you bump into him occasionally and he's confronted you about blocking him....

Is this a friend/acquaintance who is oblivious to the crush and can't understand why he's been blocked? If so, I can understand why he's confused

Or does he know you have a crush? Has there been flirting? Is he pursuing you?

I can imagine my behaviour confuses him a bit. Sometimes, I'm super lovely to him desperate for him to value me and others, I try to almost ignore him or be indifferent in an attempt to distance myself.

I wouldn't say he flirts but I think he enjoys the attention and likes the idea that it's there whenever he wants it.