I’ve been with my partner 9 months. My previous relationship was really awful as my ex was controlling and physically and sexually abusive. I have been trying to work through this and thought my current partner was supportive and understanding that this was my experiences. We were friends for a really long time before we became closer and he was really aware of my past experiences
I also have ocd and just found out I have pmdd and once a month I feel incredibly fragile and I’m only just realising why that is. It definitely heightens traumas that I’m currently trying to work on
last weekend was incredibly stressful for a lot of reasons and I got incredibly emotional and unwell. I was feeling really insecure and voicing this to my partner and at one point I walked out as I was feeling really unsafe around him which I know was irrational. I ended up going to a&e that evening because I wanted some mental health support.
since then my partner has been ignoring me quite a lot. He gets defensive when I try talk to him about what happened and he seems to be judging me on this one particular event. He’s known me for 10 years and dated me for 9 months and I’m normally a happy, fun person to be around. I feel so rejected and I have apologised so much to him.
what’s worse is that he communicates how difficult it is to be around me yet he keeps talking about going into a new career in mental health as he’s been inspired by the people that talked to me at the hospital. I know that he currently doesn’t have a proper job but It just feels like such a weird thing to say considering he can’t even talk to me or support me right now.
due to the situation with my ex partner I’m currently homeless too which I why I’m currently staying with my current partner. After the situation last Friday he has now said I can’t stay with him anymore as his mum says I can’t stay there (His mum owns the flat that he lives in). It all just seems so disproportionate to what happened. I feel so overly punished and lonely