Been with DP nearly a decade. Have 2 children together, he's always had some form of depression/mental health difficulty but is getting worse and worse as time goes by. He refuses to take antidepressants, he keeps lying to the doctors etc saying he's still on them but he isn't so they keep upping the dosage but he hasn't been taking them at the original dosage. He gets worse when he runs out of money, he found out yesterday that he most likely has Autism and because Depression is part and parcel of that then there's no point trying to treat it. I'm getting more and more overwhelmed and quite frankly bored of hearing the same 'woe Is me crap' because he does NOTHING to try and help himself. I've supported him for the last decade nearly, begged and pleaded with him to get help, take his medication. I'm fed up of feeling like we can't be happy because he hates living and he hates the world and everything and everyone in it, he hates himself, etc etc.
I just need to vent because I'm overwhelmed and I'm angry about the double standards when he says things vs when I say things.