Spark isn't there after 4 years ....

[autumnleavea]

Me and my partner have been together 4 years.
Sam sex relationship (both female )
We moved in after 4 months and now I just feel flat.
We have a house in both our names
Share a joint bank

I find myself thinking about my ex a lot.
Especially after a few drinks.
My partner is quite lazy,she can be very moody and all the normal things we all do is starting to get to me (talking about her bowel movements ,constant farting etc )
All the romance and sexiness has gone.

I miss my ex (even tho she was a total mind fuck and hurt me) I miss the spark
I miss the excitement
I miss it all

I love my girlfriend
I honestly couldn't imagine life without her
There's just no spark

Is this normal ?

This is the thing I do truly love her
I couldn't imagine being with another woman
I think the lack of intimacy is making me feel attracted to other women because I'm craving it
Not sure if that makes any sense to anyone as it doesn't to me most days ha ha

@autumnleavea that level of steroids is really high. That sounds tough.

Do you fancy her? Are you at a point of feeling repulsed? It's good to be honest with yourself if you can.