Depressed but don't know why!?

[Coz97]

The past few weeks I've felt my depression creeping up more and more to the point where recently I've been having dark thoughts. I know I wouldn't act on anything, I just feel completely overwhelmed. I have a 6 month old and I've just started a new job, so I know it's not a surprise that I'm feeling overwhelmed by everything. I look after my baby most of the time since my partner is working, and he takes over when I'm working etc. Recently, I've been so annoyed at everything, including my partner at times. I've felt resentment towards him at the fact he has hobbies, friends, supportive parents, everything I don't basically. I'm insecure and jealous. I've become unpleasant to be around sometimes. Don't get me wrong, I try to fake a smile and I'm polite at work, I still have a great relationship with my baby. I just don't know why I'm so unhappy. I'm having counselling at the moment. How can I get to the root cause? Anyone else felt like this or currently feeling this way?

Maybe it's feeling insecurity because you don't have a supportive network, aren't married, needing to work so soon, you probably physically have changed.. that he can walk away and start again uncomplicated while you have a child with you forever. Maybe you realised he isn't the one or the timing was bad to have a baby.
Maybe delegate more to him and his supportive family. You know why you're feeling this way you just have to be honest with yourself.

Yeah I think you're right with some of these points. I chose to have a baby now, but if I'm being honest, I probably shouldn't have waited a few more years. However, I don't regret my decision. I just need to have a deep think about what I need out of life, my relationship etc. Because clearly something is bothering me