Hi all, im new here, but I would really appreciate if someone reads this and answers so that maybe I can get an understanding of what I should do....so her goes, I've been in a relationship for over 20 years, he was my 1st love but I wasn't his, we were only teenagers when we started "messing around" nothing serious because he had not long before me broke up with a girl he'd been with for a year. However I got pregnant, and I think he felt he needed to be my boyfriend, even though I said he didn't...but he stayed and we moved in together after our baby was born, in our new apartment I found photos of his ex that he'd took from his house, when I confronted him he said its none of my business....I was timid back then so I'd of left it at that and cried, he'd told me I was the rebound girl after his ex, so I never felt like I was chosen, always felt like it's just because I got pregnant, that's why we were together, throughout the years he always accused me of cheating, even though I couldn't even go out with my Friends, all I did was work, clean house look after baby, while he didn't work, went out with friends etc. Then 7 years into our relationship I found out( not from him) he made contact with his ex on social media, when I confronted him he said it was to let her know I found out she cheated on me with a certain fella....now they broke up because he found her cheating with someone. Anyways only a couple of months ago he let slip that he cheated on her too, so as you can amagin bells went off in my head, if he cheated on her why make contact??? Nothing added up, and only a week ago he tried to compare our relationship to theirs, in the sense " well if we broke up I'd still care" big difference we have kids.....thats just one thing though in that same conversation a week ago he was talking about another woman he use to know and called her stunning ( he never called me stunning), not the 1st time he's referred to women like that,when I said this to him he just laughed, I asked him when have I ever referred to another man as handsome, off course he couldn't answer, cause I never did. I just never felt like he appreciated me for the woman I was, I never cheated, was always by his side, yet I got so much thrown at me for years, and everything I ever done seems meaningless to him. I told him something from my past years ago and he has used it as a weapon against me, and said recently if I'd of known I'd of never went near you. I feel like I've so much hate for him but can't seem to walk away, and I'm so sad in life right now....I feel like I wasted the best years of my life on him, this is just a drop in a jug of what my life has been like. I have no one I can share this with, so maybe if I hear others stories il know if this is normal in a relationship.