Does he hate me?

[charmedimsyre]

Me and this guy were seeing each other and it ended bad ,we had thid weird situation for about 19 months.
He did the bad things to me,I did him no wrong.
After we broke up,stupidly we started speaking even tho we knew to stay away.
Eventually we cut ties,I deleted him off social media except for Facebook -I just deleted my account.
It's been 4 years now and I'm engaged and live with my fiance and we have just bought a house.
I'm in a good place and I reactivated my Facebook.
Uploaded some recent pics of us and started using my Facebook.
My ex was still on my fb and after 4 years all my upset was gone and I didn't feel the need to remove him.
Anyway he viewed my stories and after a week deleted me.
I don't understand why -he has all his ex's and one night stands on his Facebook
He even told me he keeps all his ex's on as he has no reason to delete.
One of the girls he slept with in mutual fb friends and he wished her happy birthday.

When we were first together it was great and I know we had something good but he ruined it
I did nothing for him to hate me.
I know it's not significant
It just makes no sense

When we were seeing each other he always made me feel worthless
Always making me jealous ,lots of narcissistic traits that he tried to blame me for.
I had forgot how bad it made me feel as my new partner is everything he isn't.
Now it's triggered me feeling like once again the one who isn't even good enough to be on his Facebook (even tho I shouldn't want to be after everything)
I would never ever want him again after what he put me through
He just manages to trigger this feeling of worthlessness
It's a weird one to try and explain
In a way I wanted him to see how well I was doing and how he didn't break me after multiple attempts.

Maybe that's why he deleted you, he can see that he can't get to you any more.

It's not hate, you're just not victim material for him any more.

Take the power from that, hold your head up high, shrug your shoulders and move on.

this is very very weird

i imagine he had a nose at your profile out of morbid curiosity

and then remembered that you somewhat unhinged and quickly blocked you again

@probster why are you determined to paint me as some sort of unhinged lunatic ?
All of your responses have had the same tone to them
What's the point seriously

because that’s what i suspect he thinks
which is why he blocked you immediately after scratching the itch to see whether you’re still on SM

you said “it’s not like i even care” in an earlier post and here you very clearly do

and how can this make you feel like this when you’re engaged. Surely just look at the man you love and about to spend rest of your life with and think who care whether or not i’m “good enough” to be FB friends with someone from 4 years ago

good point

morbid curiosity
bored and randomly searching up people from his history

@probster he hasn't blocked me
He deleted me
Also I realised he had removed me when he was a friend suggestion on people you may know

Sounds to me like he's still trying to mess with your head and knows how to get to you. It's worked. Block/delete him and never look him up again.

Well he deffo hasn't forgot who I am
Whatever the reason is it is what it's is

@sparkie81 we have known each other 10 years
Friends for two years first
Then a lot of bad history happened
Also mutual friends
A lot of stuff I don't want to spill on here but it wasn't just a random ex

This is bothering you to much. You state you have moved on and you're happy but this post makes me question this.
Whatever his reasons are none of your business.
Go be happy and forget about him genuinely

He probably didn’t even realise you were still facebook friends as you deactivated your account.Then you popped up with the photograph so he deleted you.

no motive,no hate just didn’t want you as a friend.

Probably because all your threads are the same? Mooning over some bloke who is no longer interested

Yeah as you say it is what it is. Time to move on and probably for the best tbh. Not much point having toxic exes you don’t even talk to on your page.

Now it's triggered me feeling like once again the one who isn't even good enough to be on his Facebook (even tho I shouldn't want to be after everything)
I would never ever want him again after what he put me through
He just manages to trigger this feeling of worthlessness
It's a weird one to try and explain
In a way I wanted him to see how well I was doing and how he didn't break me after multiple attempts.

You know you’re really over someone when you decide to stop trying to prove them wrong or impress them. It sounds like you’ve got some reflecting and healing to do.