Split with my partner of 9 years and we have a 1 year old DS. Last night was my first night in the home I've just bought alone and I cried all night. I missed him so much and also missing my ex and our family home. I've slept about 4 hours and woken up and I'm crying again because this just doesn't feel like home. I'm regretting the breakup and just want us to be a family again. We clashed so much for most of this year and worked hard on the relationship but then called it quits in April but all I feel is guilt and regret. Looking back I think I had PND but my ex just got agitated by me rather than supported me and it became a vicious circle. He's expressed regret aswell and wishes we had held on longer to work it out, he's bought me out of the house and now owns it alone and I bought a new house and I just don't know how I'll ever feel settled here. I vomited because I cried so much, I feel absolutely empty. Wasn't sure which topic to post this under. I just want to know will it get easier because this is the hardest time of my life. We've agreed that my ex has the baby 2 nights a week and he has a great relationship with his dad so I know he's fine I just miss him so much it hurts. I'll be going to get him later this morning and can't wait to see his little face. This is the worst feeling I've ever experienced.