It's been some time since I left my ex, an on/off toxic set up which I nearly killed me, spritually, if not nearly my being. I'm still trying to fathom the abuse I experienced. I do not want to get back with X, I can just understand why X is so fucked up. Yet I believe like every one of us, X has a choice and X has chosen the cycle of abuse - because they feel they're beyond reproach? I don't think so. I think it's survival and they don't see or trust a way out - likely.
Despite X being an abuser, X's F abuses them. Psychologically, emotionally, financially, etc. From a young age, X was exposed to neglect, physically abused, pulled into substance abuse, sexualisation/possibly molestation, domestic violence and just out and out dysfunction that most of us would shudder to hear or scarely believe.
To name the main issues in X's life: lives in squalor, has shady friends, an addict, doesn't/can't see dc, no address, doesn't access health care, is without a regular job, history of social breakdowns, a police record.
This person abuses, walks and lives and breathes among us. Yet there is a glimmer of a human, vulnerable and scared and stunted. Is there a way I can very indirectly help this person without in the process harming myself?
Thank you for reading and any advice.