Ok I have not come here for judgement ( asking a lot on mums net i know ) but I cant really discuss this issue with anyone and I just need a virtual hug.
I recently started hooking up with my ex boss who is a bit older than me, we are both separated and despite not being my type at all and being a bit older but he made me feel really special whilst I wasn't feeling great about myself , at first the arrangement was just sex which we were both mutually happy with, however he felt like such a safe place i slowly started getting feelings for him, he starting going a bit cold on me and we didn't speak for a few weeks and I felt i was getting over it , but he then checked in with me this week and all of those feelings came back, i know deep down he didn't feel the same, and whilst not wanting to get hurt further , just sent him a message telling him how i feel, apologizing for feeling that way when it was not the agreement and asking for my sake he blocks me on everything so I cannot make any contact and I can move on, which he agreed to do and wished me well and was very sweet about it.
Just had a little cry and I know I will get over it, but I also feel really proud of myself as I feel a few years ago I wouldn't have handled this so maturely and I know this has saved me a lot more hurt down the line .
I wont ever speak of this to anyone because I am a bit embarrassed about the situation. But had to vent somewhere.
Can I have a virtual pat on the back?
Thanks for listening/reading.