This is a bit of a weird one. So me and my ex were together 9 years and welcomed our DS (first child) a year ago. 8 weeks in I think in hindsight I had PPD but didn't realise it at the time. I became very picky with everything DP did and made him feel awful. I think at the time I just needed support but he retaliated and told me I'm acting bipolar etc, that's where it all began. We made it to April 2024 and then we called it a day after months of arguing over the most stupid things, we almost just got used to arguing and did it over anything. He bought me out of the mortgage and I've now purchased a new house which I'm due to move in to on Tuesday next week. We're both feeling a lot of regret and have basically owned up to our parts we've played in this. He said he wish he'd supported me more and I apologised for making him feel like a lesser parent in the beginning and trying to take over constantly, because he's great with the baby now especially as hes getting older they have such a great bond. We both said if we had felt this way a few months ago we wouldn't have taken things to the extent and we would have kept working at the relationship. I'm now due to move on Tuesday and I haven't stopped crying. Do we just feel this way because things are getting real now or do we truly regret it and realise what we had? It's so confusing. I feel like we have to accept that we took it this far because my name is officially off the house and I used the money for the deposit for my new house, and see how we do with co parenting etc. Not sure on the point of this post but I feel like we've just woken up from a bad nightmare and all the feelings are still there and we just jumped the gun during a really shitty few months which so many new parents go through. If we realise when properly apart that we still have feelings, how do we even navigate that now we both separately own houses etc? It's boggled my mind all this.