I’m currently 34 weeks pregnant. Pregnancy has been hard, it was unplanned have been seeing my partner for less than a year. At the start we both agreed to terminate but I changed my mind, initially partner was terrified of that decision but ultimately supported me and now talks constantly about how excited he is to meet baby and tells me I’ll be a great mum.
Thing is pregnancy has been super hard. I’ve been constantly sick, and exhausted and emotional. I work a retail job with my hours being cut down to 16-25 a week (often less recently due to sickness). Partner works four 12 hour shifts weekly as an engineer. He always has weekends off while my days could be anything each week. I feel he doesn’t take my tiredness or beinf emotional seriously especially on days that he has worked. It feels he believes his job is more important and it’s important for him to wind down when he comes home (he goes on video games sometimes alone sometimes w friends for hours at a time). I sometimes ask him to go downstairs to get me a drink or food or painkillers etc and every time he huffs and sighs and grunts. When I’m really unwell or crying a lot he’ll hold me and tell me he’s here for me and loves me, but I don’t feel this when he’s huffing and puffing because I asked him to go downstairs for a glass of water. He sleeps in late, and goes to sleep before me. He’s a bit lazy. The room can get quite messy and I feel I have to beg him to clean. I have really bad pelvic girdle pain so when I try to clean it doesn’t last long before I need to rest. He says he doesn’t mind but the huffing and puffing comes with it and when I beg he makes comments about me being lazy, he does it in a jokey way so if I say anything back I get the ‘I’m just joking!!’ I don’t feel loved or supported by him. Often times at night I cry myself to sleep (mostly hormonal) and I’ve noticed him pretend not to notice sometimes. Lastly it was recently my birthday and he didn’t get me anything despite being 30 weeks pregnant and extremely emotional. Am I being irrational by thinking about splitting or taking a break while I’m so heavily pregnant is it irresponsible to make such a serious decision this far in?