dp and i had a bad argument over xmas where he hit me (he was very drunk), it was the first time and I called the police. It was xmas day the next day and they told me basically that if I told them an asault had taken place they would have to arrest him, which spoil mine and the kids xmas day, if I said to them we had just argued and i had got scared they would give him a talking to etc. So, being a mug I went for the latter. There was no apology from him in the morning.
however, this morning he shouted so badly when he left I was shaking in my boots (or slippers!) and haven't really been able to stop crying. He says he is sick of me thretening to kick him out (which I do quite a lot to be fair). The kids were scared witless at the sight of him screaming in my face. (they are 2 and 10 mnths)
He has said before there is no way he will ever leave, and I have no where to go where I can take my children, who I would never ever in a million years leave behind. What do I do to get out of this terrible situation? I am so unhappy, I feel so shit that thing s have worked out like this but I am tired of trying. I only stayed here for the boys but if he can't act normally in front of them and not shout I don't see the point. Sorry if this is messed up and sounds madness, I can bearly think straight, let alone type.