My partner and I have known each other for a long time. Not very proud of our history and how we started so I won't go into details. Bit of background..I 34f have always been very insecure about myself and have low esteem,never could see me as being pretty,never was in any serious relationship. Also I was never fun of the big wedding,personally I think it's a waste of money,but wouldn't mind a nice simple ceremony,at the registry office to make it official. He 34m has been in serious long term relationships,and I know for a fact that even though it took him a while he had made the decision after all to buy a ring and propose to his ex-girlfriend ,but it never happened. I don't know all the details and don't want to know if I'm being honest.
We got pregnant in 2022 while we were figuring things out between us,so we became official for friends and family. He knows my stand about weddings,and agrees..also that I am not a big fan of spending money on jewellery,as I don't wear any...Sometimes he says that a simple wedding would be nice and more to his liking as well,and he is happy and lucky that we see eye to eye on that,and other times when people ask the question of us when are we getting married he just says we are not thinking of that,as we don't really want it.
Planning to move abroad,and I won't be able to work for a while as currently pregnant on baby now,so it looks like we have to have a certificate of marriage so I can be considered as his dependent and have insuramce etc.
I have started being upset about it as even though I know is just a piece of paper,and I m not fan of wedding,I would still have liked that we are getting married cause we want to do it,and not because we have to for paperwork and legal reasons. To see that he actually wants to be with me and not being with me cause I ended up pregnant. Just something symbolic you know to say,I want to spend my life with you. I don't know if I make any sense,or if I m being crazy and hormonal. But it just bothers me so much late
ly.