Anybody with different perspective on this would be much appreciated as I can't seem to get out from my mental rut. DH and I have lovely 10 months old DD. Recently I decided to enter into musical audition and am going away for two weeks as I got into the finals when DD will be one year old. This is something I'm very passionate about and need to practice a lot for the finals as I feel it will be my last chance to enter into the competition. (as I'm getting old..). So lately DH is taking care of LO more than usual and he is saying things like 'you know this one comes first', 'she misses you so much'. And it's hard enough missing her loads when I work without hearing stuff like that. Of course my gorgeous daughter comes before everything, and I love her dearly, but this work will be just for next two months. So I'm just being miserable working my guts off (as it's making me more tired than usuall.) and DH is always giving me guilt trip looks (and saying if you want to do it so much, why aren't you happy). He says he is being supportive by looking after her, but I don't feel that I'm being supported at all. I don't want to feel like this until the end of June when all of this has finished and our relationship is suffering. I feel like quitting it all will maybe make it better, but then I know that I will feel so resentful. And last straw was today, I was practicing in the room and got interrupted, I told him he wasn't being supportive, then he called me a bitch because I rather work than go play with him and DD to the park. I take her out loads in the mornings, playgroups, swimming, shopping and he never really takes her out of the house, so why can't he go with DD to the park without giving me hell? I don't know if I'm being selfish and just quit this audition thing or not..