Bit of a self indulgent whiny moan if I'm honest, I'm afraid.
I'm 50 and I've been in a relationship with a man about 10 years older for nearly 4 years.
In every respect, it's the best relationship I've ever had but I'm just so unhappy in myself.
I keep waiting for the day to come I keep reading about when I just don't give a shit anymore but I'm plagued with the same neuroses and insecurities teenage me was. I don't feel any differently. I'm just older and in an older body with more to feel insecure about and life experiences that have shown me all the things I was insecure and worried about were the big deal I thought they were back then.
I've lost my mojo, my motivation and my hope. I've posted in relationships because it's affecting my relationship.
I just wondered if anyone else feels similarly and if you got yourself into the "fuck it" zone, how did you do it?"