Me and DP been together 5 years. 1 toddler and 1 baby due in November.
Our relationship has some strengths -
- he makes me laugh
- trust him implicitly in the cheating sense
- loyal dad
But I feel that in a slow burning way, over the last 2 years I have slowly fallen out of love with him.
He has been in a MESS financially which has left me having to bail him out thousands of pounds. It means he doesn't EVER treat me or take me out. Not a penny towards either of my maternity leaves OR a penny towards toddlers clothing/ birthday presents etc.
I can't lie, this has affected how I see him. It's just not attractive.
The financial mess has led to him telling lies too. Lying about debts etc. He becomes very defensive if I ever try to talk about it.
Communication is generally awful.
I feel that he has no capacity to emotionally support me either. I am a very stable person but if ever I am upset, he often tells me I'm overreacting or being ridiculous. For this reason I shut myself down emotionally.
Sex, whilst one great has become incredibly unappealing to me. My body almost rejects him. I think because I feel so unsupported.
Currently, I don't find him attractive as a result of all of the above and his sheer presence I find stressful.
I would love to think I can fall back in love with him. Because if the above changed, I think I could.
It would break me to tear family apart but right now, I feel like I deserve more.
I know I am pregnant and feelings are amplified but I also felt these feelings prior.
Where do I go from here?