I started writing a post but it was too long. I suppose I haven't talked about any of the issues and was trying to get it all out in words.
I deleted it and thought just a brief post wouldn't bore too much
From the advice of my doctor I sought help for my drinking. My partner also drinks. He told me I don't have a problem with alcohol but I felt that I did. I was drinking more than a bottle of wine every night and much more at weekends.
I am now abstaining from alcohol and have finished my programme with an alcohol support group. My partner still drinks.
He told me I create problems for myself and that I didn't have a drink problem and that he is sure I can find something else to have a problem with.
He often asks will I ever drink again and when I say I don't know , he says I don't think you ever will , but it doesn't feel like a compliment
I have since been trying to eat healthier and I have lost weight. Which he has praised me for repeatedly but also then he tells me I'm not eating enough, questions the food I put in my plate, pushes food at me.
This last few days I started calorie counting using an app to make sure I am eating enough.
He had 10 cans of lager and a couple of whisky's yesterday. I had to drive him to Something he needed to go to in the evening.
We stopped at the shop on the way home and I was hungry so grabbed a snack. When we got back I had a few things to do but then I recorded my calories on the app.
When I went to sit down he said I was obsessed that I rushed in to record calories and I should have sat down to relax first.
I disagreed and now it has escalated to he will cook his own food and I will cook mine. That was him saying that.
I'm sorry if this doesn't make much sense. My thoughts are so jumbled and I'm tired with not sleeping well