I feel like a failure as a mom and as a wife. I am a working mother (32), with a rather demanding job and have my own childhood baggage to carry.
My son is currently 1 year old and is more attached to his father. During the day he has a nanny who takes care of all his needs and in the evening, he prefers to play with his father and sleeps when he is put to sleep by him.
I try my best to do all that I can, for the house, for my work, for my husband, and for my son. My husband, keeps taunting me and saying things that make me feel very bad and shitty about myself and makes me realise how bad as a mother I am. And when I get angry and retaliate, he further shouts and says things to me, and the fight escalates for the next 4-5 days till I apologize.
On top of that, due to several other issues (medical), I was not even able to feed my son on my own when he was born and could provide him with my expressed breast milk only for the first 4 months. Another event I am not able to get off my head.
We do not even get intimate that often. Last week we had sex after 2 months and he never seems to be interested in me. (I am also obese, maybe because of that?). Yesterday when I tried to kiss him and initiate sex again, he shooed me away with some other excuse.
I don’t want to leave him and I have also expressed my concerns to him several times, but he just feels I am over reacting.