Hey all
Posted before, STBXH left 1.5 ago DD at the time 1.5 and 4.5, I was still on maternity with no income.
Found about OW two months later.
I've returned to work, moved into a new apartment and now, 1.5 later the dust had settled a bit. Still livid with STBXH and the affair and it's aftermath, but I have great friends and have started therapy.
I don't live in the UK, so different laws, but his maintenance payments towards me (not DD), will decrease considerably. I am starting a new job- earning as much as possible for the girls and myself is my goal but yesterday in bed, girls.lying next to me, I just got so scared.
Starting a new job is some.of it, it's more the whole entirety of how my life has been turned up side down...
How when I have the girls, I do it on my own and somwtimes i feel overwhelmed (OW has moved in with him and helps with all chores paying bills and childcare)
How I have to financially support my children and myself in a very expensive city
I'm just suddenly so scared of thr future, which I wasn't before, but maybe it is because I was in survival mode since he left...
Any ladies out there who know how I feel?
Who have managed to "do it all"
Who maybe even thrived in adversity.
I want to be a role model to my girls, but I am sitting myself atm
Thanks so much!!!