Been with DP for 15 years. He's very much deemed as the nice quiet guy by everyone he meets. Recently he's been getting a bit snappy with me. I've occasionally called him up on it but mainly put it down to the long hours he works.
I feel so sad about what our relationship looks like right now and I'm wondering if I'm overreacting. I've tested positive for COVID for the first time today and I feel dreadful. I rang him to let him know I had COVID and was feeling very rough and all he said was 'oh dear, ok speak later'. I've still walked 4 miles today to take and pick up our DS because I haven't had a choice. DP got home around the time I was picking DS up but there was no call to ask whether we were ok and whether we'd like a lift home. I let that slide (as he drives all over the country we track each other on our phones using an app which also detects crashes - v.useful!) but he probably didn't think to check as it's more a more useful app for me.
When we got home after quite a gruelling walk, I collapsed on the sofa and he said 'well what's happening with childcare tomorrow then?' I said 'im fine thank you for asking'. He looked perplexed so I went on to tell him I worked extra today to try to cover the work I'm likely to miss tomorrow so all is fine. He nodded.
We're due to move soon and my parents have offered to pay for a removal company to help. He got very stressed about this and said it will make things far more complicated than if he just did it.
All these things probably seem quite small but perhaps due to my current state, I broke down in tears. He said firmly 'what you crying for? What's the matter?' I told him he'd upset me and walked away before I said what was really on my mind - that he's so much more mean than he used to be and I'm starting to wonder if moving to a new house together is a good idea.
He came up a little while ago and said he was sorry for upsetting me but he still doesn't really understand as he didn't raise his voice.
I feel tired, upset and now irrational. Maybe I don't want to be told I'm in the right or in the wrong. Maybe just a hand hold even if I am being too sensitive?