Hello all,
I'm posting this as I'd love some support. I posted this on the pregnancy forum earlier but thought this might be a better fit
I recently came out of a long term relationship where we'd been about to start trying for a child, I'd had fertility testing and very low egg reserve was found. Unfortunately the relationship had to end, as I found out he'd been cheating throughout the entire relationship. I was devastated that he'd wasted years of my life especially at my age (mid 30s) and we'd been planning a future.
After the breakup; I'm embarrassed to say but went on holiday a few weeks after and had a holiday fling, and fell pregnant. I've decided to go ahead with keeping baby due to my age, fertility situation and the baby's father is supportive of my keeping the child (albeit we don't know each other well, I wouldn't be reliant on him if he did turn around and not want to be involved).
It feels like a blessing; as following my breakup I thought this would never happen. However I am feeling very sad, at the same time. I'm feeling rubbish and lonely, and thinking about my ex a lot and it's hard because now I'm pregnant it's harder to find other distractions if you know what I mean.
I dont know if anyone has been in this situation, I know I'm ready to be a mum I just feel really sad about the situation not being how I'd planned. Will this all be worth it?
No judgment and kind words only please