I feel quite broken.

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I will be brief. I had a relationship after many many years and it ended last year. I am in my mid 50s. I was incredibly wounded, really hurt. I don't lie in relationships and I have never cheated. My ex bf was separated going through a divorce, he had numerous affairs in his marriage. The last time I spoke to him was last autumn, he said things had been awful horrible for him etc in fact he had started seeing someone very soon after we split. I stopped following him on social media but hadn't unfriended him and all of a sudden he started liking lots of my posts. God knows why. I feel shit, I literally feel numb meeting any guy or friendzone them. Yet he seems to be on a treadmill of weekend breaks with his gf, taking her to meet his family etc. I know I sound bitter but I feel so broken yet he just seems to bounce back having a fantastic time. My life is full of wonderful friends but not love. Any advice please?

I have looked up triangulating @XChrome and what you have said makes sense, he would often talk about "friends" not using names but it was obvious they were people he had affairs with..

you do know that SM is just an illusion, like smoke and mirrors, it can present anything to the world to make it look like life is way better than it actually is.

your first mistake was not blocking and deleting when the relationship ended and your 2nd is now having a good nosey on his feed to see what he's up to.

he knows you are watching him, you know he is watching you and he is presenting a prefect life for you to see, and possibly vice-versa.

he's an ex because of the way he treated you, they very rarely change their true colours.. block and delete and move on

I can't thank you all enough. I felt I had got over him, because I believed it he ended our relationship because of external factors and he seemed devastated but even a few months later in the midst of divorce proceedings ( the stress of which was his reason for ending things) he was seeing someone else. One of the things that really broke my heart was a picture of him his girlfriend and children, he refused to tell them about me. He doesn't for one moment give a flying fuck about my feelings or even think.