Support and empathy needed. How do I stick to my decision and stay away from him?

[Kelevelelis]

I finally broke up with my boyfriend that I previously posted here about his lies and I'm feeling very vulnerable.

My ex boyfriend and I were together for a year and a half and we're in our early 30s.

He lied to me about a few things since the beginning. About his salary (gave me 4 different figures), his weight... his lies are easily disprovable and petty.

Last incident was he was telling me he's going into the office but everything suggested he was working from home. It's absolutely fine, he can do that anyway but when I asked he was refusing. One day I drove to his house and caught him there. He said he felt rubbish for not going in when he had to so lied to me.

Since then, he's had a therapy intro session and booked consecutive sessions. He's begging me to give him another chance. I love him so much. He takes full responsibility and says that he will try so hard. I can already see that he is.

I just don't trust him. It's simple as that. But something at the back of head says that what if we can rebuild it? What if I'm missing out on what it could have been? I don't know. He's been messing me about with his dishonesty since we met and I feel so weak.

In my head, it's a hard no and that I'm wasting my valuable window to have kids. In my heart, I just don't want to be without him. How do I stick to my decision?

write down all the things they were not right in your relationship and every time you have doubts read it. you need time to heal just remember you deserve better and if your friend was in your situation you would want her free of that sort of man

Ok so you know when we used to behead people? Well, at least in this neck of the woods (no pun intended) this is a thing of the past. And you know how when you sever the head, for a few minutes, apparently, the lips are moving- Anne Boleyn's head tried to speak (probably a myth but for the sake of this post, let's go with it). Whatever oxygen remains in the severed tissues and diminishing blood supply inside the decapitated head allows for some small amount of brain function, which is incredibly short-lived because the tiny amount of oxygen supply, stored in the blood and tissues, is on its way out. Death is imminent.

It's a really bad analogy but if you can just remember that your relationship has met the guillotine, you might better accept the truth. Death is imminent. Don't be fooled by that false sense of oxygen supply and post decapitation 'movement', which is a rogue hope.
Let go, OP. It'll be ok. Let go and mourn and grow and do all of the things you need to do to allow good love to find its way to you when you've recovered from all this. Your ex is an obstacle, not a hope.

You don't trust him. That's a very good reason not to go back for more. You know why you shouldn't. So, listen to you!

Why do you love him? If you can answer that question truthfully in one column, followed by why you don't trust him, truthfully, in another column, you'll see the solution more clearly.

He is a compulsive liar. I've had exes like this. Lying about silly things that do not matter. There can never be trust with someone like that.

I once had an acquaintance like this, and I still find it baffling. He caused all kinds of problems, but for no personal gain. Except I suppose he got a bit of a power trip by giving people false information. A bit of drama, maybe. Sad really. No one trusted him for long.