I've woken up with my ex in my head and not sure if I am here to be talked out of, or into doing what I woke up thinking. I, as my username suggests, recently found out I have issues with my thyroid. I can see now where I have had flares in my life over the last decade, with panic attacks and mood swings and confusion at both, usually triggered by stressful events.
I was in a relationship a few years ago where I was pregnant during lockdown. I began bleeding one day and it wouldn't stop. No one at the hospital could understand it as I was 12 weeks pregnant and they could tell via blood tests but they couldn't see the baby in the womb and thought I was having an eptopic pregnancy. I ended up having to have a "cyst" removed from my fallopean tube, which the surgeon amazingly managed to keep, but it likely took the baby with it. Bleeding stopped. I had pain from a cyst there going back years but had been told it was .1mm too small to be removed, so there was a lot of emotion at the time. I was trying to be weirdly stoic about it all but the nurses had a brief chat that my hormone levels would now normalise (they were sky high) gradually over the next few weeks. What I didn't even consider at the time was that this was caused by my undiagnosed hyperthyroidism. Now I know that it likely caused this and the mental blow out with mood swings and confusion and panic attacks that followed. I was put on anti anxiety meds without a face to face appointment but they didn't do anything so I stopped. The relationship broke down within months of the miscarriage probably in part because of my behaviour - he did the typical withdrawing and finding someone else, stonewalled until I broke it off because I needed support and he just retreated.
I've woken up this morning just wanting to tell him. Maybe an email? I don't know, am I right feeling he should know why it all happened or is this best left to myself to deal with/get over? Would I just come across as a crazy or would it be helpful for him to know it was a medical cause?