i cant stop thinking about confronting my ex, its genuinely becoming an obsession
In lockdown i met my ex, we got through that time together and obvs it was tough because we couldn't see family or friends. I sold my flat during the break between first and second lockdowns, but the owners of the flat i was buying pulled out the day before completion so i was homeless and moved in with my ex temporarily (it ended up being 6 months) In hindsight, that was a massive mistake.
The day i moved into my new flat he said he didn't think the relationship was right and he wanted to break up (which obvs made me feel like a total idiot for not noticing this)
A week later i had a miscarriage, i hadnt known i was pregnant because id been told that i would find it hard to conceive due to my irregular periods/health issues. I bled out a 4 month miscarriage alone in my new flat during lockdown, i took myself to the hospital after 4 days because i thought that was excessive and they had to do a procedure to remove the rest of it.
When i told him, he said "that sounds bad". nothing else.
a few weeks afterwards i asked him not to get in touch, but that i'd appreciate a card around the due date of the pregnancy. His response was "i can if you want, but what will that achieve?"
i not even still angry about him and the break up - im just furious that his friends who never met me think he's a good guy and that i caused drama for no reason, they genuinely look at me like im crazy.
i know its a terrible idea, and no good can come of it but i cant help wanting to scream at him and his friends that he's not a good guy! it makes me so angry that he has such a "sensitive" persona, and its total crap!
talk sense into me!