Hi all. I was in a 9 year relationship that ended almost 3 months ago, we also have an 11 month old DS (first time parents). We had a pretty healthy relationship, didn't argue much, we travelled, bought a house, and just had so many laughs together. We planned for our son and were so close during my pregnancy. When our DS was about 8 weeks old I did start to get very nit picky about everything 'hold him like this, don't put a blanket on him it's warm' and just generally telling him what to do and I hate thinking back to those days. I think I was just so anxious that this little human was ours and I wanted to do everything perfectly, and in hindsight I do think I had PND and didn't see it at the time. That's where the problems began, but whenever I would cry from tiredness and feeling overwhelmed, he would get frustrated with me rather than supportive. This led to weeks and months of him then calling me bipolar, or calling me a hypochondriac if I was worried about a rash on the baby for example, there were a lot of put downs when all I needed was a hug to calm me down. We disagreed on so much in the months that followed, some things I should have let go, but other things I had an opinion on and he just doesn't seem to like when my opinion differs from his. This could be general things for example when the baby started to crawl he wanted to put him in a playpen all the time, I explained that a playpen may have it's uses if we are busy and need somewhere to put him for five, but he needs to explore and this is how he learns. But even things like that he would get so angry over, it's seemed to be his way or the high way and he just hated me disagreeing on anything with him. I think I was always pretty easygoing in our relationship and went along with things, but having a child makes you more opinionated in a way because you want the best for your baby. We tried for months and months to make it work and then we called it quits around end of April. I have bought a new house and will be moving in around 2-3 weeks and I guess I'm just reflecting on our 9 years together and feeling so heartbroken as he has repeatedly made me feel like I am to blame for all of this. I did change when becoming a mother, and apologised and owned the fact that I was a bit overbearing in the beginning but I am anxious by nature and he has always known this. I tried so hard to make it work but everything I said or did he seemed agitated about, and he just didn't look at me the same. I'm just venting here sorry for rambling, I'm just beating myself up some days then other days realising that he's been far from perfect at a time I needed his support I didn't need to be told I was mad for having emotions. It's horrible when things unfold like this when the happy family you wished for just doesn't exist anymore. My DS is my world and keeps me smiling everyday but I am still so heartbroken over this.