Sooo today I finally plucked up the courage to contact the police on my ex.
It's been happening for over a year now well since I fell pregnant with our daughter, he changed, become a really shit person, controlling and showed his true colours. He guilt tripped me into keeping our daughter when he knew I didn't want children (contraception failed) made me feel awful for considering a termination and when I had spoke to him feeling how I felt he would kiss my belly and rub it even though he knew I wasn't sure what to do about the pregnancy I was only 6-7 weeks pregnant at the time hadn't long found out.
During the pregnancy I was soo poorly was always unwell, sickness, heart burn, acid reflux, constantly picking up viruses etc plus I had my three boys too look after it was horrible. I do not enjoy pregnancy never have. He was ok did help now and then but the way he was with my boys was just not ok. When I had our daughter he would make comments and digs like ' your taking the piss out off me, I'm doing everything meaning feeds, changing nappies and school runs bearing in mind I was still healing from child birth and it was only a week after and he wasn't doing it all 🙄 but made me feel soo shit, he manipulates me into staying with him doing things with him all the time, he goes on and on and on til I give in because I just want to shut him up, I tell him over and over again I don't want to be with you we are not together and we won't be getting back together but he just don't get it, he randomly turns up at my door when I've asked to be left alone, he knows because I've just moved into a house and need things done certain things I can't do myself and knows I don't have family who can help he uses that as an excuse to come round and be round me constantly but won't stop going on and on until I cave in. He gets jealous about everything even stalks my social media and goes through all the comments and peoples likes and questions me about them, he will use our daughter every time guaranteed when things don't go his way or he don't want to hear things like me not wanting to be with him etc I have felt trapped by this man for over a year and 10 months, he has fully drained me to the point I just don't want to do much, I don't go out I don't do anything because I have no energy he has his daughter every other Saturday and every Thursday, he's always moody, moany and aggy, always throws things in my face like money for example because I'm on benefits at the moment and get more than him and he works full time, he throws in my face that he's always using his free time to help me round the house yet I don't ask him he forces this just to be round me tells me I'm doing it for free I should be grateful, last weekend I said I don't want to see you or anyone I want to chill and be left alone yet he managed to come round twice for various reasons ( I got sucked in) he makes me feel guilty all the time and I feel I have to do things because he helps me and I have no one else, yesterday I didn't want to talk to him because I just am soo drained soo he wants outside my house for an hour knowing I had the school run I just drove past him then he knew sometimes I go Tesco express on way home after he was there managed to convince me I needed help with something in the house told me he would be there 40 mins max ended up being 3 and half hours 😩😩😩🤦🏼♀️ this guy just don't get the hint and won't accept I don't want to be with him anymore because I don't!! He just says to me I don't mean it, I'm just feeling down, nobody knows what's going to happen in the future and all this shit all the time.
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Soo today I finally plucked up the courage to contact the police even though I've been told by friends ages ago to do this ages ago. I just can't do it anymore it's really affecting my mental health and I can't move forward because of him. There is soo much more I could write on here about what he has done over the last two years but I would be here for hours typing.