I just wrote a post about something ex just said and how upset I am

[MascaraOHara]

but then I lost my connection and it disappeared forever and now I feel numb and empty and sad and I feel like my chance to get it off my chest has passed and I don't know what to do with myself

I seem to constantly be left feeling inadequate by men.

Have you tried hitting your 'back' button a few times to see if you can get it back?

Otherwise maybe type again and highlight it all right click on 'copy' just in case connection goes again

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there seems little point. I'm not really one for pouring my heart out unless it's spur of the moment which is why I never ever preview.

my life is a car crash, every year I think.. can't get any worse and then... it does

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Oh I am sorry

If you need to chat 'off board' just CAT me.
I've been where you are right now and a bloody good cry, a long hot bath or a few glasses of wine seem to help.

OR a combination of all three x

it was exP not ex office man.. everything is cool there actually and we are getting along nicely as friends, also realised that I don't think I ever felt for him what I thought I did.. was just really messed up after break up with exp.

don't knoww hat to do with myself right now and I know I'm irrationally upset and that is gutting in itself as only just came off A/Ds and was doing really well.

thought I was doing really well.

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Ignore him. Omg men are such shits!
I am really fed up with mine..he doesnt understand me at all and he cant see why im upset at having a 4th miscarriage..as it wasnt yet a baby..so he says. Sorry im really angry, i hate men..i sometimes wonder why they were invented.
Tell him where to get off mascara!

thanks just had a shower as have important meetings tomorrow and really can not afford to look all puffy eyed.

feel almightily shit and let down.

Just wish for once something good would happen.

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yeah. just wish the others would stop putting the boot in.

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Thanks for your support last night.. the strangest thing happened to me.

I went to bed feeling very down/tearful/etc

got up this morning feeling only slighty better but knew I wasn't myself when I welled up at Tracy Beaker but then... miracles of miracles..

touching ym make up up in the mirror and I remembered a conversation that I had only last weekend about xp.. the content of that conversation meant that he was lying last night and in fact still hasn't changed a bit.

It all became a bit of a weird feeling but I suddenly felt liberated and assured that he will never change. he is the loser I thought he was and it has nothing to do with me. I deserve better than him.

He never changed for me and he won't change for her either.

You are right everything looks better in the morning and by the afternoon I feel very free of him and I feel like the last shreds of emotion I felt for him have been burnt away.

Thanks again.. I really needed your support last night. I needed to be told it would be better in the mornin and that men are tosspots.

Dior, how are things with D(?)H?

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