So a while back I found out accidentally that my husband would look at women online. He would come In From work eat the dinner I made, I would then shower/sort kids out while he sat down stairs the whole time looking at porn/women/social media, all the time not helping with anything and ignoring me. I found this out by accident, I wish I hadn’t but did. I was devastated by this. Before anyone says I was a sahm had none of own money, had access to money but not enough to leave. Recently I have noticed we will be in the car or together out of the house and he will just be staring at women, he isn’t doing it discreetly it’s obvious. It’s making me feel like shit as I don’t get looked at, touched, had sex with for a few weeks (have offered bjs incase he’s tired not taken up on them). How to feel less shot about my self?