It's a bad idea to message your ex and start chatting after nearlly a year split up isn't it.....
When the split was due to a huge argument because he was breaking your trust boundaries with other women knowing he was (constantly) especially this 1 female friend...and then when you were heartbroken and trying to fix it and begging (embarrassed about this now) for him to come back and fix us and get through it he was blocking and unblocking you consistantly all the while sleeping with his ex girlfriend who he said was abusive crazy etc etc and you only found this out after you did rekindle for 2 weeks after 6 months of waiting by the ex calling you and telling you - he lied point blank to my face that he hadn't slept with anyone else since me and our split his words "I have no interest in anyone else I have been heartbroken"
Heartbroken and balls deep in his ex, whom he told the same story about me that he told me about her (the irony)
Been messaging for 3 days now, went over the break up stuff again now we are both not angry (why was he ever angry with me ffs he broke my trust boundaries) and he soon turned the conversation from feelings to sex - bear in mind his ex ex told me he mithered her for sex once they split up - and told me "he would love to spend time with me again, no expectations of the future who knows what could happen, but ideally it would be great if you didn't get pregnant 😂😂"
This IS a bad idea- isn't it? What the hell am I doing??
Why don't I trust my decision and gut that this is a shit decision to even message him let alone let him tell me he wants to have sex without expectations...
Please be kind I struggle to validate my own feelings and need your opinions
Think this has come off the back of me blocking a guy I had a date with after a shitty experience stirring up the good memories of my ex and my brain playing tricks on me!
Please be kind.